Fatigue Maybe
I may be running out of steam.
I'm incredibly tired and frustrated.
My parents home, this bunker is and has been a source of my strength... I no longer need to be worried about its survival. It has actually become a haven for many friends of mine and will continue to be.
I need to leave for a brief time. Like two weeks.
What's wrong with me is that I am a loyal idiot.
I will always do what I must... and for whatever reason, that entails me feeling that I can not leave my city.
It's hilarious actually... every day there is a new reason for me to push that time back.
All I want to do is drive. I want to get in a car and drive. I want to drive Texas on small roads.
I want to have a beer at a horse ranch north of Santa Fe, NM.
I want to go drive up Sunshine Canyon in Colorado and then eat at Neopolitan's while drinking cheap red wine.
I think I actually need to get some perspective.
But everything keeps getting pushed back.
Stupidly I have not left this Parish to register for food stamps or to stand in line for 47 hours for Red Cross relief... Nor have I received a dollar from FEMA. Not a penny.
Whatever.
Trust me, I'm getting tired.
Sorry... I'm just bitching.
I'm incredibly tired and frustrated.
My parents home, this bunker is and has been a source of my strength... I no longer need to be worried about its survival. It has actually become a haven for many friends of mine and will continue to be.
I need to leave for a brief time. Like two weeks.
What's wrong with me is that I am a loyal idiot.
I will always do what I must... and for whatever reason, that entails me feeling that I can not leave my city.
It's hilarious actually... every day there is a new reason for me to push that time back.
All I want to do is drive. I want to get in a car and drive. I want to drive Texas on small roads.
I want to have a beer at a horse ranch north of Santa Fe, NM.
I want to go drive up Sunshine Canyon in Colorado and then eat at Neopolitan's while drinking cheap red wine.
I think I actually need to get some perspective.
But everything keeps getting pushed back.
Stupidly I have not left this Parish to register for food stamps or to stand in line for 47 hours for Red Cross relief... Nor have I received a dollar from FEMA. Not a penny.
Whatever.
Trust me, I'm getting tired.
Sorry... I'm just bitching.
posted by TAG at 2:27 AM
12 Comments:
you are not Bitching!
Seriously man, you have been there for too long. Take a day go see that everything outside is still there. Well except for cheap gas. And see that all is well.
Then walk in to NO with a new outlook on what ever else is going on.
You need it! you Deserve it. Go.
And get that paper work bullshit done on your way out of town.
Azar
I agree with Azar. But you should not have to buy a drink for the rest of your life! You've done a service for me, personally, that I'll be grateful for all my life. You've set the standard! I know that your grateful readers would be happy to host you on your trip to decompress. I'm in Virginia, and that's not on your itinerary, but leave a comment on my Blog if I can help. A glimpse of the intact world might help.... or might not. After Ivan and Opal took out our family homes we couldn't see the forest for the trees. But we rebuilt, better for it.
Sounds like you really deserve a break. Came to your blog by way of renewnola.com, its been so informative and my heart goes out to you.
Neopolitans rather than Hurricanes, no doubt. Maybe y'all should have set up a drink called Sunshine and Wind -- so that tourists like me from the North could feel all special when we come to visit and get some sailing in, too :)
Making a light joke to cheer ya up -- not sure if you are religious or Christian, but check out the daily devotionals on "Upper Room" : http://www.upperroom.org/devotional/s on "Upperroom.org" : today's story, about high water, actually sparked a song tune for me (i write them as and when...)
Yes, you should get out of town for a while. Come back strong. Maybe (so you don't feel guilty - ha) you can set up appointments with Southeastern news organizations -- start a new 'network' of reporting down there. Make regular trips out, come back in. Not sure what type of writer you are (your specialty), but take advantage of this time to do something that will make you happy + give purpose...and a few extra bucks might make things a little more tolerable, etc. You've started a blog....start the new daily. I bet you would get support for that.
Go get 'em! : ) (After taking a break, of course!)
...oops, i thought the Neopolitan was a drink - read too fast - sorry! ha ha
Well, another light joke your way...take care.
Troy- Great blog throughout. If you can get time for a daytrip to Alabama this weekend, go over to Fairhope. The FYC is holding a regatta in spite of loosing most everything at the club and in the harbors. It may only be taking sunfish and windsurfers around the course, but they are getting a race in ant having a party no matter what. (This is their annual Wadewicz regatta.)
If you get there, I can have you put your drinks on our tab. (I'm up in NC)
You need a break.
...Can you get out for a sail? Ask kindly of the skipper, gather some friends, pack some sandwiches, etc., and head out for a bit...
You definitely need to get away. Pick your place. I'll bet at least one of your readers will be able to set you up.
Just think-- you'll come back refreshed, better able to do the hard work that's needed to rebuild your city.
Remember what they say on the airplane, make sure your own oxygen is working before trying to help the guy next to you.
Give yourself what you need so you'll have it to give to others.
So. Where are you going?
I bet there are LOTS of free housing opportunities for you with your new blog fan club...
Take Hwy 36 across Texas...to 84.. to Santa Fe..
The balloon festival is in Albuquerque this week... probably crowded.
I hope whatever you do that you find the rest your looking for... driving always does it for me...
Hey, yeah -- Blog Reader Rollcall [BRRC]...
Detroit, here...not exactly a place anyone wants to visit, usually ; )
If you get as far as Tahoe or the West Coast (or I-80), email me: you'll feel right at home (my house is half gutted, a 'restoration in progress'), but I have a hide-a-bed for a nights crash and still have that 151 Cruzan. (nothing like traversing the desert with a hangover ~grin~)...and I have HOT SHOWER WATER!
superman. Take care of yourself
so you will be around for a while
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